When Dennis died, there was an emptiness that had to be filled and I took up painting. At the time, I didn’t know whether I could really paint at all. When I was 11, my Mom enrolled me in 3-hr/week art classes over the summer vacation but we worked with Watercolor and Point Perspective over the ten-week course. When I began painting again, I chose to experiment in acrylics.
Over the past 10-months, there’s been a vast improvement so my friend, Marilyn convinced me to enter some paintings in the State Fair……Saturday, I found out that I placed 1st-place in the Beginner’s division, up against others who have been painting for up to 3-years! I was floored!! It wasn’t until Monday that I made my way to the fair to see for myself. It was so unreal to see my painting of a Dalmation showcased with all the other winners.
Dennis was the reason for starting and then over time, he became my muse, my inspiration for painting. I wish he were here to see what has been accomplished because of him. I think he would have been proud of me.
I see things on tv about new shows that I know he would have loved and it makes me sad. There’s so much that he’s missed and will be missing now that he’s gone, I will keep painting for both of us and hopefully, this weekend, I can plant some Spring bulbs with a small amount of his ashes so that he will always be a part of this place where he spent some of the happiest moments of his life.
I still cry over my loss and for all the things he’s missed and will miss. I still need him but he’s in my heart and in my paintings. He will live on thru them and continue to be the inspiration for them. It’s the least that I can do. It’s the only thing that I can do to keep him alive in my heart. No one can or will ever replace him….not ever.